2014

Happy New Year! How often have you already heard this today? I heard it 17 times yet and nobody knows how many people forgot to say it today and will tomorrow. 

I love New Starts. I love Changes. I love new ideas. That’s everything a New Year offers. It’s the First Day of the Year and I woke up so full of new ideas. Something new is the chance to get a new chance. I started to read a book in the last days of 2013. It’s about a woman, how does one good deed every day for one year. It made me think of what I could do in 2014.

Today I got a brainwave for this year. I wanted to take a picture every day. 356 pictures of 2014. I loved the idea from the beginning and thought about creating a blog to publish one picture everyday so I could show my actions to everyone. 

I told my family and boyfriend about this and he was like “it’s kind of weird to publish your whole life in the internet”. This was like a punch in the face, because I thought it was so perfect and he just didn't feel my joy about it. My idea was maybe impossible because I wouldn't even have enough time to do so. I laid in my bed for like an hour thinking about the next year. What if I wouldn't do a photography blog? What if I would just not document my entire life every day? All the diaries, blogs, photo albums and every sheet of paper which I filled with my thoughts, dreams and feelings about life became a huge pressure for me since a while. So I got that it wouldn't be the right way to continue like this. I decided to do the opposite. To stop writing and blogging and documenting every little step I will do in 2014. I would stop to talk about myself all the time and start to listen to all the others. I would start to support them and stop to wait for their support for my dreams. 

Finally I added the sixth and last point to my New Year Resolutions:

1. I will Fight for Love and Friendship.
2. I will Have less fears and worries.
3. I will Be funnier.
4. I will Not repeat small and large mistakes.
5. I will To stay myself.
6. I will Get inspired.

Cutest thing in the world.

For all of you who like puppies or dogs and all of you who don't like puppies and dogs:
Since I'm 11 years old I used to hate dogs. The reason is, when my cousin was young (and I mean really young) a dog bite her in her cheek. I don't remember how it exactly happened, but I guess it must have been horrible. Another cousin of mine was pushed so hard by another dog that he fell down and lie down in the grass. It must have been terrible for him, too. I'm not trying to generalize that, but I think that it's the behavior and the actions of a dog, which makes it unpleasant.
When I first met Hachi it was the same as always. He's the dog of a friend and even though it was outside of the house, he was barking the whole time and I had to be afraid that he's going to bite me in my leg. Of course the dog and me hated each other.
But today everything changed.
I was at my friends house and I don't wanna seem arrogant or conceited, but I think the dog fell in love with me. After a short time, he followed me where ever I went and I could pet him almost every where, where I wanted. It was amazing and I have to admit I fell in love with him too. Even my friend said, that the dog usually doesn't like her friends as much as he liked me.
Isn't it like in the perfect love stories, where two people hate each other first but then create the biggest love we have ever seen?
Of course I can't compare my relationship to a dog, to a couple of two humans, but I want to tell you something else with this example.
Sometimes in life the first try doesn't work. Sometimes we don't succeed by doing the first step. Sometimes we need to try again and need to do the first step again.
Don't give up, when it doesn't work the first time.

♥♥♥

The key is yourself

Read this text until the end:

"You meet someone.

You two get close.

It's all great for a while.

Then someone stops trying.

Talk less. Awkward conversations.

The drifting.

No communication whatsoever.

Memories start to fade.

Then that person you know,

becomes that person you KNEW.

That's how it usually goes, right?

Sad, isn't it."

The internet is full of texts like this. People like to complain that they lost someone in their life and they are just hurt and hurt and hurt.

You know... when you lost someone in your life, then maybe because they died or they walked away to another continent or anything. But you should stop saying those things about people who are still in the same city, town, school or even class like you. 

I know you wanna hear that they hurt you and you have every reason to cry now. It's okay. You can be hurt.  You can be really sad about it and it's okay. But you should ask yourself if you did everything that's possible about it.

You know you are saying: "We aren't that close anymore."

But WHY?

Why are you not close anymore? Is it maybe because you didn't have time for this friend anymore. Is it maybe because when this person didn't text you first you stopped trying? Is it maybe because you didn't listen the person anymore?

I'm not saying it's you're fault. All I'm saying is that you might wanna think about why it happened and what you could have done about it.

Don't let it happen next time, because you are right. It is sad.