Something from My HEART (Part 1)

"Did you ever have that feeling, when your heart really burns in your body? Do you know that when you think your heart got wings and flies through your whole body?
- Well, I had that feeling, before a sword tore my heart into pieces."

First of all. It wasn't actually a sword and my heart is not tore into pieces like in the movies. It more a symbol. I know, you are not stupid. You probably got that, but you never know who you are talking to if you just publish something in the internet and I don't want to get misunderstood. That would be terrible. Terrible like my feelings right now.

I'm actually not that kind of Drama queen. But since a time which I cannot really remember some things changed and now I am kind of a Drama queen, because I kind of over estimate some stuff. You probably don't want to hear something about that. More interesting is the fact, that there is something what really touched my heart and then destroyed it. And what else could it be, than a Boy?!

A boy, that you cannot imagine. I usually don't let a boy come so close to my heart. Why? Because he can break it. That's what the boys can do. They can break your heart without really realizing that they do it.
Since i know that, I told myself: "Never get heartbroken!" Easier to say than to do.
So I made up rules for myself. I wanted to follow these rules. It would help me. I wouldn't fall in love and I wouldn't get a broken heart.

1. Rule: Never, never, never, let the Guy get the feeling that he is better/ higher than you.
2. Rule: If there is a risk to fall in love with a boy or start to like him, Do never ever show your feelings.
3. Rule: If a boy who is nice starts to want you, ask your self why? Answer: He doesn't like you. He only wants to have s** with you.
4. Rule: Have many "boyfriends" that you don't get to concentrated on one boy
5. Rule: Reject them. Don't be easy. Be smart and at least always smarter than him.

All this rule can easily be combined in one rule: "If he wants to play with you, play with him and be better!" That's what I thought would help me. Well, I guess it would have followed the rules. But unfortunately, I didn't. 

I continue later. Here is something from my heart: I love you ♥♥♥