For everybody who has ever been hurt in any way

This Feeling, when you want to be together with someone, but you simply can not because it's not possible. No matter what the reasons are. That feeling is like everything around you is trying to rip your heart out of your body. You are trying to cling it with your last strength, because the memories which still exist are only left in your heart.
This Feeling is hurting my so bad, like a sword what is going through my body and nobody pulls it out. Everybody who has ever been in love, has been hurt for some reason knows that, right?
Why do we get so hurt in life? Why is that happening over and over again? Why do we just have to feel that pain every day when all our memories come up.

I don't wanna be hurt anymore. Do you want to? All the pressure on my heart is terrifying me. We should stop all the soreness but how? How do we find a way out of the distress after we are already so involved?

There is only one thing we can do: Get the sting out of our body. It hurts for a moment, but then your heart can finally heal again and you can be happy again.

♥♥♥

The Comparison of Painting and Love

Love is like Painting.
I found that out when I was talking with my sister today.

Why is Love like Painting? Or better why is Painting like Love?
 Let's look how you start to paint a picture. First of all, it's always empty. Empty and white. Hopefully white. Then you start to draw or paint something on it. You better start really slow and soft. You maybe don't know yet how the whole picture will be, but you should have a plan, how you want to have it at the end. You wanna know what your result will be.
But aways when you start to paint, you know, you will maybe do some mistakes and sometimes you will get color blobs somewhere on your clothes. But you know that before you start the painting, and it would be naive if you would think you don't get any on yourself when you are painting.
But you know when you start painting, that, if you work really hard, in the end something wonderful turns out of it.
But sometimes, when we miss up with the picture and it is not pretty anymore, we have only two choices. Either we throw our work away because the work to fix it isn't worth it or we work hard on it, fix it and it will turn out to something beautiful.

We don't know, if we don't try. Sometimes we have to give up, but sometimes it is worth it, and then we have to try so hard for it, that it will be amazing!

Love is like Painting, because when we exert our selves Love evolves some marvelous and delightful.

♥♥♥

Sorry

"I'm sorry. Sorry, for behaving like a bitch. I have been so selfish. I only think about myself. Only care about me. I feel guilty. Guilty, for not being there for others. Not caring about their problems. Not listening. I'm so sorry."

It has been a while... Life is busy. But being busy, what does that mean? I didn't even have time, to write down some Secrets or Quotes for a long time? Well, that's not what we call busy today.
The funny thing about the word busy is, that we actually use it for everything today, except being busy. We think it's an easy excuse for not answering on messages, not helping others and not listening.

Maybe at some point we should stop saying we are busy and care more about others than about our selves.

♥♥♥

If you want to be happy...

Nobody knows me really

Nobody knows about my feelings. Even if I tell you, would you understand me? Would you really know what I mean? Can you look into my heart?

Nobody knows what I want, so why can anybody give me advice? Nobody can, because I have to feel what my heart says on my own. I have to find out what I want first, before other people start to tell me what is good for me.
But sometimes, I do stupid things. Things that I regret. Things I wished somebody would have told me to not do it. I don't want to do regrettable things. I don't want to embarrass myself. I don't want that things happen which i didn't want to happen, only because nobody warned me.

So what should I do? How do I know if I do the right thing? How do I know if my Friends give me the right suggestion? How do I know?
Right. I don't know. I never know, what will happen. I can't evaluate what will happen next. Because like everybody else, I can't see the future and I can't look in anybody's heart. I don't know what they do next.

But that is life. Isn't that the thing what is so exciting about life? Isn't that the point what makes every decision important? And isn't that also the reason why we always try hard because life gives us only one chance?

So I'm still without decision. Because nobody knows what is the best for me. And me neither. So how am I gonna decide. I will just do what I feel like after I thought about it really long.

And that's what we should do. Use our head and listen to our heart.

I guess I love you. ♥♥♥

The End

It's over. We are done.
Whose fault is it? His or mine?
I guess both. Well, It's actually more his fault, because if he wouldn't behave like that, I would not have ended it.

Now since it is over, he maybe realized what he did. He ignored me when we were together. It was like he wasn't even there when we were sitting next to each other.
Now he is starring at me the whole time and tries to make me jealous.
Everyday I have to see how he talks to every Girl and pretends to has really much fun. He looks then to me and laughs really much.
What do I think about it?
Well, I do not care. I don't care if he has fun. I don't care if he hugs other girls. I have a better life without him. I have something new. I found a good way out of it.

This is what I wrote to my friend about the End.
"Wir wollen alle eine Liebesgeschichte wie Blair&Chuck haben. Ich habe meinen CHUCK gefunden. Doch ich musste leider feststellen, dass ich nicht BLAIR bin... und auch nicht sein will."
"We all want to have a Love story like Blair&Cuck. I found my CHUCK. But unfortunately I had to realize that I'm not BLAIR... and I also don't want to be her."

Bye, I love you. ♥♥♥

Happiness and Mistakes

I cried today. And I smiled. A lot of both.
I don't know if it is because I'm a teenager or I am really emotional, but my mood changes from hour to hour.
I was talking with my good friend today. She is really funny and I love jokes.
I cried because I was writing an emotional letter to my friend. I really like that friend. But I had to apologize and then I realized that he is such a special person.
I did something stupid to my friend. I know my behaving is not good many times. I feel bad. But she forgave me. So that is a mistake with following happiness. That just brought a smile on my face.

Well, something bad happened, something good followed. It is better this direction than the other way around, right?

The point of what I am covering today is, that even if something looks bad in the beginning, if we work on it, it might turn out to something good.

I am tired now, I have to sleep. But here is a little promise. I will blog more then next days.
Because I love you. ♥♥♥

Something from My HEART (Part 3)

This is already Part 3 from "My HEART", and I still feel like I didn't say anything about what's really going on. 

You probably already got that it's all about me and a guy. But why am I talking about him so much. Well, I don't know. I feel like I have to talk about it. I have to tell someone. Even if I don't get an answer from anybody. I just want that somebody knows.

Why do I like him? An interesting question what I asked myself so many times. I think I have an answer now.
He is exactly the kind of boy, I would be if I would be a boy. He does all this stuff how I would do it. It's not his character it's his behaving.

I have to change the topic. I don't mean the Main Topic, I mean the Subtopic. I switch from him to me.
If you want to understand this you should know something about me. I can't imagine anything on this world what I love more than Chips. Now I am only talking about food. People are not included. I'm not that heartless. Oh well, sometimes, but that is not the point right now. So, I love Chips so much, that I really hate to share them. I hate it, when I eat my Chips and then somebody comes and asks me: "Can I have one?" I always say no. But people hate to hear no, so I have to give them Chips and there is not much left for me. Because do you know what people mean when they ask for One. They always mean to take a whole hand full of Chips and they make it as full as possible. They rather let something fall on the floor then leaving really much in my bag of Chips. I wouldn't mind if it is only one person, but it is never only one. And that is pissing me off. Do you at least a little bit understand how important Chips for me are? I hope it. Well, but something changed. After I talked with him or he wrote something cute to me in the chat, I have at least 24 hours of mercy. And in these 24 hours you could even ask me for Chips and I would give you the whole bag.
I just wanted to say, that: Maybe he is not the best guy, but he makes me a better Girl.

He just makes me happy. I realized that.
Don't forget: I also love you. ♥♥♥